The other night as we were settling in for the night, my hubby sort of let me know he was "in the mood".
I knew this would come up eventually, and didn't know how I felt about it, until that night.
Mr.LMF gave me the signs that he wanted to be amorous, and I totally came unglued. It had been 9 weeks since we had Love, and to be fair to Mr.LMF, due to the cerclage, we haven't been able to do it in MONTHS. So, he's ready. But I'm not.
When I really thought about being touched anywhere near that area, it just seemed so wrong. I still remember so vividly the feeling of Love being born, so I cannot switch gears and allow that area to be used for fun, because the thought of intimacy in that way just brings up all these negative emotions and feelings, and I don't know how to wrap my head around that.
I know I need to talk to a professional about this, but I thought I would look for feedback here as well.
Has anyone else dealt with this? What did you do? Were you able to overcome?? Will I ever be able to relax and enjoy being physical again? HELP!!!